First Post

The title First Post brings to me thoughts of my Grandpa Franklin and at his memorial in the ANAFVets in Kamloops, BC in 2007. They played Last Post, which if you don't know is the military funeral dirge in Canada. I do not know if the U.S. (or any other country) uses this as well but it is the tune played during Remembrance Day ceremonies. As a child my father was in the Canadian Air Force and we lived in Germany. Every November 11th we would leave the Country and travel to an Allies cemetery for services. Seeing those rows upon rows of crosses had an effect on the child I was even though I didn't quite understand how each one represented a single person who died so we could be free from tyranny. Sometimes I wonder if we are being led into a new sort of tyranny, one controlled not by people but by laws and debt.

I think it is very poignant for people to think about November 11th and what it means even though it is not near. I had a plan as a child, and indeed it seemed the only thing I would do with myself. That would be to join the military, and preferably the Canadian Air Force. Ultimately my dream was broken as during a move in 1998, at age 16, I severely broke my left knee to the point that now, years later, I suffer from arthritis. I've had to quit my cooking jobs as walking even with a cane is extremely painful. Right now I don't know what I will do but I am hoping to return to the University of Victoria to complete my English degree. I started this blog with the intention of improving my writing skills as my desire for life now is to be a writer. I have said that for years lately but I haven't written much beyond poetry.

As you may surmise from my blog title, I am an adult with ADHD. I do not take medications for it as it makes life interesting in its own way. It is also very frustrating as I forget things because of distractions (I am easily distractable) and being physically disabled I cannot do much with my boundless energy. I am waiting for warmer weather when I will take my bike out as my Doctor keeps telling me to go biking to strengthen my knee. I also have a congenital defect in my right foot which required the fusing of the joint that lets you rock your foot from side to side. It too is very painful to be on for long periods of time. Pain eats at you. I've struggled with drug and alcohol addictions because of it but am taking medications so I can move somewhat. I hate to think of what's happening inside my knee though. When I broke my knee I knocked out the outside part of the joint at the bottom of my femur. This is what led to the weak knee and arthritis. Not fun for a mid 20's person to have arthritis.

Though initially I hope to have friends reading this who might be surprised at my hidden daemons (I like that spelling of it - That's ADHD happening right there too, the brief interspacing of a topic unrelated to the current sentence/paragrpah), I hope to expand beyond that and have my reflections and experiences be valid to anyone who chooses to read my blog. Despite my being inhibited physically, I still enjoy life, love, friendship and music. Alas, no more mosh pits at metal shows.